Monday, August 3, 2015

Facebook Friends!!!!

July 20th, 2015

Dear Levi,

Facebook friends. :')

A dream come true, almost too happy for words. A prayer of 2 years and 7 months and 5 days. The trust that you would add me, and then not have your phone for a week, says so much. Thank you.

And you followed me on Instagram. =)

It almost seems more intimate, to see you as one of my "followers."

And you like GiGi's letter.... a tactical choice, but the crux of the matter between us: her death brought our lives back together, her love was proof that we were meant to be together

And you accept my follow request back! =)
Instantly, within a literal 60-second minute. Were you just waiting for me? Silly boy, sweet Levi.

But you didn't say anything. Just opened the doors wide and went back to training. What brought you to that decision, on a long Saturday night? At 11pm, going to my Instagram and liking my photo. At 1am, making the decision to take the step you had never taken before, to change everything.

Why so late at night? Why, me?

I feel so humbled, so small. When I think of you and everything so great and precious and incredible you've done and who you are... and I feel a fool to hope you'd ever want me.

Yet somehow, even in this small way, you told me that you did.

And I am so blissfully drunk on happiness, it's been 36 horus and I'm still staring at the screen shot of your FB request and... it just can't be real!! I woke up all sleepy and warm and saw that on my screen Sunday morning, and it was as if my world tilted on a new axis. I knew it was a landmark moment, a true miracle.

Truly, Levi? Truly? =)

Oh, I had forgotten for so long that happiness like this exists when I just shine and shimmer and glow in the warmth of your sunny smile on me.

Levi

Levi, my best friend forgotten
Levi, my soul mate whom my soul loves
Levi, I have missed you so much.

Every day. Every hour. Every heartbeat.

Your star,
Rigel

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