June 22nd, 2015
Dear Levi,
The most enchanting moment... it stopped me in my tracks, wide eyed, soul lifting to the pastel blue skies somewhere above the swaying tree branches. the trail, lined with lush green lawn and stretches of golden wild flowers, curved around to a view of the lake.
Hefner was glittering, waves rippling in shattering diamonds under the setting sun, rushing to open water. The river was flowing silently, and just as silently, the magic danced down through the trees in the sun rays. Visible, barely, so light and translucent and delicate that if you didn't take time to notice you'd never see the cottonwood cascading down in the breeze.
Like a myriad of angels fluttering down to the green earth, then floating softly near the water, above the grass, through the trees. It was more than magical, it was perfect.
Like the fireflies on Saturday night when I was battling the choice to stay alive or go, after you blocked me on Facebook and Instagram out of the blue, so unexpected, so hurtful after California~ it was God, showing me something so enchanting no one else might even have seen this evening. Just me, still as a fawn on the trail breathing in the scent of woods, water, wildflowers and cottonwood.
I wish you were here to share this moment, Levi. Walk this path with me, splash through the water ont he pier, have a picnic under the trees in the sunset glow. You're not here.. yet you are, in my heart. I carry your memory with me, the boy who unfathomably adored me and pinky-promised he'd marry me; and loved me... and loved me. I don't know where he went, but I'll never forget him.
I promised him forever, and I meant it.
Your star,
Rigel
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